Aw, no mention of SB2H...
I know it gets a lot of hate, and it isn't my favorite album of his (MOTMII probably takes the cake) but the album will always mean a lot to me. It was the one that finally forced me to confront the fact that I was connecting to the music for *mental health* reasons, in addition to all the other reasons I loved it.
I discovered Kid Cudi's music pretty late, back in May I think it was, but I quickly took to his music, liking the laid back tone of his voice, the way he would mix it up and sing sometimes and I really liked the beats. As an electronic producer myself, I really focused on that aspect, especially as I listened through Indicud and Satellite Flight, after learning of his level of involvement in the instrumentals on those albums. I was aware that he was saying important things about mental health and respected him for that, but still resisted drawing my own connections to that. When he took the plunge off the deep end with SB2H, which was definitely foreshadowed by "Troubled Boy" I found myself starting to get really upset. After hearing the album, I was inexplicably on the edge of tears for pretty much two days straight, and I couldn't stop thinking back to that album. It kinda terrified me. Because I couldn't really deny that connection to the music anymore. I had been feeling a connection to this man's creative arc, as a producer, and then he just plunged into darkness. And I was *still* relating to him. Couldn't really say it was because of the beats and such at that point. Some of the lyrics of those songs cut to my core. I began to think back to all the times I thought I might end up killing myself one day and didn't really think I could figure out how to make my life work for me, and I finally thought "Shit, I'm kinda like this guy! Maybe I'm depressed!"
But I'm one of those people who is just really good at putting on a smile when I'm around people (The title track of SB2H really speaks to me). Not even my girlfriend knows the extent of the sadness and anxiety I've felt at times. Somehow, I think connecting to Cudi for other reasons than mental health really primed me for SB2H to be like an amazing therapy session. It just resonated so deeply with things I had tucked away and denied that I couldn't do so any longer. And it made me go back to all his music, commit to learning the lyrics and I finally realize all my connections to those lyrics as well. So his music was all of a sudden alleviating this intense loneliness I had constructed for myself, but also giving me the courage, and *need* to reach out and try to overcome it (his facebook post is a big part of that). An old childhood friend had recently been diagnosed as bipolar and his openness with me about that, coupled with Cudi's inspiration, pushed me to share with him things that I've never told anyone. Now my friend and I are kind of each other's mental health sponsors, in a way.
Cudi's impact on my life surpasses that of any other artist, and it is because of his courage and openness about mental health. I'm glad you made a post about the holiday here because I certainly think he deserves celebration today. "Reborn" is such an inspiration to me because I finally feel like a weight has been lifted and that I'm gonna make it there.
Whoo, this ran long! Hope it at least made sense!